All the things.. at once.

So sort of a collab here of ideas and thoughts that have been going on with me the last few weeks. So far, I am still in the gorgeous mountains of Dahlonega, Georgia. I'm not going to lie, I have been craving to just be able to get into a car and see the sights. Jacob has been very kind enough to drive me around and show me all the things on my whim. And also just to go places when I need to get out and walk around. He lives in the basement and I'm having trouble adjusting to that. I did not really leave my own house much as it were, but I lived in a 2nd story bedroom so I still had a nice window of sunshine coming in. Don't get me wrong though, there are windows in this basement. They are just all closed. I just want to DRIVE.

Anyway. So my friend William posted an awesome picture of a man pony. I say man pony because I think it's just MLP (My Little Pony) fan art of a boy pony. I do not think it is actually something from somewhere specific. So it made me want a pony too. I WANT A PONY. So I was googling and found this really awesome pink, purple and black pony with skulls and all kinds of amazingness. I found it here http://www.tomopop.com/sdcc-2011-exclusive-my-little-pony-19967.phtml and apparently it was only available at some Con in 2011. I'm so jealous! I wish I could have this pony. Oh well.

Aside from that, just been playing a lot of Warcraft. Jacob bought me a new desk to have here. Originally we had a $20 one but it was just not comfortable for me to work at and then continue to sit at and play video games. So we got one that is basically the same as the one I have at home just without the extended attached shelving on the side. It's awesome. I love glass desks, they look sleek and modern and nice. So now it really feels more like "home".

I've been feeling slightly guilty about what I had to do to get to where I am now, but in the grand scheme of things I do not feel guilty at all. I think that may be where that guilt is stemming from. Guilty because I don't feel guilty about what I had to do. I did everything as respectfully and civil as I could, considering I had to break someones heart. But at least there were no lies or cheating involved. That's a plus, considering 99% of the time that is the reason people break up. It was my fault for not being honest with myself and trying to convince myself I was over Jacob when I really wasn't. But now we are in the market of buying a house and hope that whatever happens will happen smoothly and in a reasonable amount of time. I'd really like to be on our own and have our little place.

Aside from that not much has been taking my attention. We keep busy but it's nothing extroardinary. We frequent the thrift stores here because we both are complete nerds for them. We also find some yard sales to go to on occasion. I like things like that.

I feel I'm in some creative funk. I have the urge and motivation to be super creative but I don't know where to direct it to. I don't have my jewelry making things here, although I think I have some things to make SOMETHING. I just feel weird about it. I want all MY things to be here, but right now we can't do that.

I also am missing my dog an extreme amount. I miss her so much, it's like this huge void. I am anticipating the day when we can go and pick her up. What I'd do to be able to do it right now...